The pain that i feel right now is indescribable. It feels as though someone is wrenching my organs around twisting up and pulling them part; and ripping the veins of my out heart and playing them like the string on a harp. Its incredible how much you can care for someone and give your all and be so joyous and happy to spend time with them and look forward to celebrating love or even just time together! and They can concentrate and focus on all the wrong things. Make you feel like the biggest criminal and the practically the worst person alive.. its difficult and among all these negative feelings i am still trying to fix things!